Suri is turning 1 in just over a month, and I’ve just realised what a rollercoaster ride the year has been! It has reminded me that I have been away from home for over a year now – and that Suri went through the first year of his life in cities that had no prior connection to our lives, in guesthouses and rented houses with no room of his own (and no baby decorations whatsoever!), and no father around. If someone told me that’s how his first year was going to be like, I would have fought tooth and nail against it. But right now, all of this feels insignificant.
I also realised that I still don’t know what Suri’s hair is really like. By the time he turned 2 months and started getting sparse hair, the chemo started. I had a glimpse of some fine, straight hair in the month without chemo, but I still don’t know what his hair is actually like! I don’t know if it is curly (very unlikely!), wavy (like his father’s) or straight (like mine), thick (father’s) or fine (mine), dark (father’s) or brownish (mine). I debated about having an outfit with a hat for his birthday, but then decided to keep him comfortable and let him wear a casual, simple outfit. Well, I am a compulsive planner, so we are all set with the venue, food, cake and clothes! All I need is to find out now who I can actually invite to the party in this foreign little town!